2.14.2006

Love is in the air



Happy Valentines Day to all. What a big surprise to wake up this morning and have snow. Braydon's school was delayed 2 hours, so it gave us a slow start to the morning.

Last night was a huge moment for Lila and I. She has been real sad. When I ask her if she is sad, she cries. I ask her if she misses her foster mom and she shakes her head yes. I fell so bad. I want her to not feel sad, but on the other hand I'm a bit selfish, I want her to love me too.

So, last night I sat her down on her bedroom floor and gave her a picture of her foster mom holding her. Maybe, this is something that I should have done from the beginning, but I can't beat myself up over it. She looked at the picture and said something in Chinese and started to cry. I told her that I loved her and that her foster mom loves her too. I kissed the picture and told her that her foster mom was beautiful, she shook her head yes. At that point she went into one of the crying spells where you can't breath. I started to cry, I felt so bad. I showed her that I was crying and upset too. I told her that this Mama loves her to and that I would never leave her. She shook her head yes and gave me a big hug and kiss. We sat there for about 20 minutes and she told me things in Chinese about her foster mom. Whatever it was that she was telling me, was funny because she was laughing. She kissed the picture and then held it up for me to kiss. After I kissed it she kissed me and gave me the biggest smile. It was enough to just melt my heart

As for today, I put all of the photos of her foster family in a album with pictures of all of us. She has carried it around all day, naming all the people in the album. And today is the first time that when she sees a picture of me she says Mama. She is running around the house calling out or names and laughing.

I feel like I have made the right move by making the foster family part of our family.....Maybe I should have been doing this the whole time.....I'm a little slow. I don't think I did any permanent damage.

I just want our girl to be happy with us, because we are sure happy with her in our lives.

What a great Valentines Day!!!